I keep my camera on
I haven’t choked completely yet
But when the calls end
So do I
I am deep breaths right now
Diving under the waves
To swim forward
But I can’t hold on for long
I keep rationalizing
Then tearing it to shreds
It’s like living through the tsunami
All over again
I am distraction right now
Reaching for what I must
To pass days of grief
Trusting grief will pass
I keep counting
Two weeks and then what
It’s like living in that moment
Forever
I am just my skin right now
My heart beats but doesn’t speak
But my heart beats
With Love,
Natalie