I look for it while
The morning is still dark
My blankets still warm
Sounds of sleep louder than waking
If Time could stop
The dust of my bedroom
Frozen in the air
Waiting without tension
I could curl into my looking
Let my eyes adjust
To seeing my life
Outside of my life
I could hear it
The answer living out of Time
Words winding their way around
My resting body, but I am awake
Awake in the world where the dust lights up
Moving through cycles while my legs stay heavy
I’d be out of breath if I had breath here
I am full, of oxygen and of love
Even without Time, time runs out
The dust settles as the window turns from black to blue
I roll over, restless, the world snaps
The answer warms in my palm, waiting