Remember your basics

I woke up feeling like I’d been hit by a truck.

Ignoring all decent self-care recommendations and watching the presidential debate will do that to you. At least, I think that was it. The news is that I’m also quarantined right now (and for the next two weeks) after a non-socially distanced interaction with my brother this weekend who found out he was positive for COVID-19 soon after. So balancing a bit of paranoia with exhaustion from the state of the world . . .

My brother is okay, it seems to be a mild case. My parents are waiting it out too. I also found out my aunt and uncle, who I have not seen, have COVID too. After six months, it feels like it’s hitting my family all at once no matter that we are the far end of careful and relatively in the middle of nowhere.

I am trying to get my mind to reset so I can lean back into healthy routines to get me through what is looking like a pretty stressful month ahead. I took a bath (at my friend’s suggestion) and have consumed a lot of comfort food mac and cheese. I’m rewatching my volleyball anime, Haikyuu, which is so pure, straightforward, and good that I can lose myself in it.

It’s back to basics. Drink water. Get sleep. Exercise. Breathe in, breathe out. Relax.

I’m not quite there yet, though I’ll try to be. My head is stuck in the news cycle still and I find myself lost in articles and commentaries, desperate for an indication that there some “fix” to this. All of it.

Stranger yet is carrying about a workday, though it is a good and mostly positive distraction. But I’m not sure if distraction is what we need right now? I’m not sure of anything. But I should know well enough that social media doom and gloom isn’t the way to stay healthy and impact change. Uffda.

Remember there’s good people. Let’s try our best to be among them.

Fucking vote,

Natalie