I had a very vivid dream last night that I haven’t shaken yet, so here’s me writing it out:
In the dream, they were coming for me
Nameless and terrifying
I paced my apartment
Looked out the windows
My body shaking
If I could I’d escape
But there was no time
Only seconds
Seconds left of freedom
I hadn’t done anything wrong
But I was alive
And they were coming
In the dream,
I typed out one line
‘I’m terrified’
Like a last legacy
I chose fear to immortalize me
My cats darted around at my feet
Absorbing my anxiety
And I wondered helplessly
What would happen to them
When I was locked away
What had happened to all those
Locked away before me
When I wake up,
The terror still sits on my lips
Out of sync with the music of my alarm
I wait the music out for a long count
And let the dream unravel slowly
While I pad through my bedroom
All these unrealities twisting my subconscious
The nameless them
The nameless crime
The realness of my panicked heart
As I waited and waited
Until they entered
And they entered
Before I could wake up
With Love,
Natalie