We are 100 days in 2022. My year of Heart.
100 days ago I wrote:
In 2022, I don’t know what’s to come. I want to keep meditating. I want to draft another book. I want to query my current running book and find an agent. I want to have active and mindful routines that make me feel alive and strong and myself. I want to go camping with my friends and officiate their wedding. I want to be a good leader and work towards becoming a great one. I want my work to matter. I want to keep growing. I want to have days of rest and peace. Time by the water. Fires in the fireplace. Good meals with good people.
So how am I doing? As I run through the list I see that I’ve kept meditation. I’ve started querying my running book. I wouldn’t call my new WIP (work in progress) in full “drafting” stage yet, though. I’ve officiated my friends’ wedding.
I don’t feel good in my routines right now — not any that make me feel alive and strong and myself.
I have kept growing, kept reading — 36 books so far. I have days of rest and peace. Days in Hawaii. Weekends to myself. The lake is finally lake again after the ice broke last week but I haven’t walked down to it once. I could fix that. I have had fires in the fireplace. I have had good meals.
I have felt a little lost and overwhelmed at work. But I have seen some light at the end of the tunnel and made some impact too. I kicked off our leadership development program last week, one of my favorite parts of my job. I helped create more pay transparency and growth plans so people can get the resources they need. I have a long way to go.
I have drowned in a few fandoms — Spider-Man and My Hero Academia reigned supreme in these first 100 days. My heart was overtaken. I have still spent too much time on Pinterest, too little time outside.
I have weathered the first full quarter of being on an adoption waiting list.
So how is my heart doing in the first 100 days?
It’s good. Hurting in some ways. Thriving in others. It’s wanting to be freer, less stuck, more open. But my heart is whole.
With Love,
Natalie